I'm in Philly for one last night. I made the decision on Thursday that I would make the move. It's complicated right now, and I don't really even know where this next step will take me. But for now, I know I'm leaving the east coast. And I'm sad.
I have spent the last two weeks with my step-sister and her family. I had such a great time with them, and it was so hard to say goodbye. My step-sister, Alexis, and I were best friends when we were little. We shared a room every-other weekend for years. We knew everything about each other. Then space and time got the best of us, and we weren't as much a fixture in each other's lives. It was nice to reacquainted. We still fit into each other's lives as much as we did when we were 10. I love you, Lexi. And Nathan, Adam, and Bentley too.
So there are relationships that I've built on in this past year, and there are new relationships that have recently been rekindled. Neither of which I'm entirely ready to depart from. Barely over a year ago I was getting ready for this journey I've taken east. I didn't know anybody here. I knew nothing about where I was going to live, or who I was going to meet. It's been an incredible journey. Full of deep lows and surprising highs. I have been blessed.
So now as I am still unsure what to expect on this road ahead, I can still expect God's greatness. My sadness doesn't come from a sorrowful experience. It comes from the great joy that I experienced here. The great joy that I am now sad to leave. But I can and do trust that God will continue to provide for me. He will provide guidance and direction, new relationships, restoration of old relationships, and once again, He will surprise me.
There is light in this darkness. I'm ready to be surprised.
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Bless you my daughter! You have grown in many ways this past year. I didn't want you to leave last year, but now I can't imagine your life had you not left. There will be many more surprises ahead. More friends to make, more learning to lean on God when there is nothing else to lean on. You, my lovely daughter, have challenged me to look beyond what I have always believed to be true, so see people through the eyes of my Lord. That might seem strange because of the many years I spent serving God, but its true.
Simply telling you that I love you doesn't seem to be enough, but I do love you and I'm so proud of the young women you are becoming! God has a plan for you......you might not see the fullness of that plan as of yet, but its there. I pray that He allows me to live long enough to witness it myself.
I'm looking forward to seeing you in a few days. Don't argue too much with your brother during your 2500 mile drive home.
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